• Motherhood

    Lullabies

    During the first few weeks of Aslan’s life I remember being up late at night with him, he was screaming and I was crying. I remember crying out to God. “Really God! With all that I’ve been through you couldn’t give me an easy baby that sleeps well? You had to give me a colicky baby who screams every night? Why did you do this to me?” It would have been great if Aslan was a champion sleeper who was easy going and happy all the time, but he wasn’t. I loved him deeply of course and his sweet snuggles would often make up for it. He did have happy…

  • Spiritual Journey

    My Dream

    I’ve been praying about where to begin and what I needed to write first. I will start by saying this; there is so much more to this story that so many people don’t know about. My journey of walking brave actually began before he died. I fully plan on telling the whole story someday, but I am praying about the timing of when and how to tell it. I need to respect my own journey of healing and wait until I’m ready and willing to be completely vulnerable with all the details. I also need to respect his friends and family that are still grieving as well. There will come…